Friday, 26 September 2008

Strength



In card no.8 of the Major Arcana we are faced with Strength, one of the four cardinal virtues. This virtue is more specifically known as Fortitude. This isn’t mere physical power; it’s the ability to control and restrain our own inner energies. Fortitude is the art of self control.

In the Son Tarot, Strength is shown in all its fiery glory. The top of the card shows the face of a lion with its mane of fire. At the base of the card we see two opposing aspects of the same face, representing our rational thought and our emotions. They are linked together by a lemniscate; the figure of eight symbol for infinity. The facial aspects are bathed in the fire of the lion’s mane and linked to the lion’s forehead by the glowing triangular symbol for the element of fire.

The lion is our inner fire. This is the energy of our libido; our sexuality and our creativity. If you’ve ever experienced an overwhelming lust and attraction for another man, it’s the lion’s fire you’re experiencing, burning from within. He represents the animal side of your existence, whilst the faces at the base of the card represent your feelings and reason.

To live healthily, we need both aspects of the card in our lives. The elemental triangle shows the indivisible link between your mind and your heart. The Lion’s fire gives you your warmth, your fervour and your humanity whilst your rational capacity restrains the excesses of your passions. The virtue of Fortitude is attained when balance between the two is struck. This kind of inner strength allows our raw animal passions to be tempered and to express themselves with moderation and a conscience.

There’s a fine line to be drawn when learning the art of controlling your passions. The art of Fortitude can also encompass the ability to know when the Lion should be allowed freedom as well as restraint. Sometimes it’s as important to say yes to your passions as it is to say no. Too much control ceases to be an expression of Fortitude and transforms itself into repression.

In the gay world, we often see this when men, living in fear of persecution for their sexuality mask their true feelings, hiding behind a pretence of heterosexuality and sometimes even marrying. In many such cases, the Lion soon re-asserts itself but not before wives and children have been hurt in the process.

Too little control is the most obvious manifestation of the lack of this virtue in gay culture. Promiscuity and emotional excess are the sad consequences of not being able to say ‘no’ to our own inner urges. The Lion is a precious part of ourselves but he is not our master. The man who knows the virtue of Fortitude also knows the dance of his two selves around the figure of eight. The passions and the mind are partners who, like a loving couple, enrich and restrain each other simultaneously.

When Strength appears in your reading, look to your heart. Are your inner passions controlling your life or can you strike a correct balance? Conversely, are you repressing your true desires for fear of the consequences of letting them shine? You either fear your inner lion or else need to tame it a little. Strength and Fortitude are achieved through a combination of self acceptance and gentle self restraint.

Chris.


Chris Butler.
Illustrator for the Quantum Tarot. Published by Kunati Books.

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Friday, 19 September 2008

Prince of Swords



In a standard Tarot deck, the Court of each suit normally consists of four characters. These may vary, depending on the type of deck but a majority of decks following the Rider Waite Smith pattern show a Page, a Knight, a Queen and a King. In the Son Tarot, I have followed this basic template but I’ve replaced the Queens with Princes. The deck has Pages but I adopt the alternative term ‘Herald’.

Like the Queen of a traditional deck, the Price is both the partner and consort of the King. ‘Queen’ is a term frequently associated with the gay community and it’s one I was very keen to avoid when I designed the Son Tarot. There is a rich heritage of drag and cross dressing associated with gay humour and entertainment but the term ‘Queen’ also has darker connotations. More often than not, it’s used in a homophobic context by hostile parties wishing to emasculate gay men’s sense of identity.

I often think many gay men don’t realise their own usage of the term for themselves and towards other gay men says a lot about their internalised homophobia and their lack of male identity and confidence. Why do we have a problem with just being male like every other man on the planet? Why must we also employ female adjectives to describe ourselves to others? We pay no respect to ourselves doing this, nor do we pay respect to women by using female symbology for terms of derision.

Many people might disagree with me on this or even suggest my attitude is an over-reaction. Whatever the case, my intention for this deck was that it be a collection of symbols designed to celebrate the fact that when all else is stripped away, gay men are essentially men like any others. Let’s celebrate our maleness and let’s doubly celebrate that if the King wants to marry his Prince then he has every right to do so.

The Prince of Swords is perhaps the most complex of the four Princes. His element is air, denoting the domain of analytical and rational thought. His suit emblem is the sword; the tool of battle and victory but also of self defence. Princes represent the traditionally feminine virtues as manifested in men and a ‘feminine’ affinity with their element. In this case, the Prince of Swords has a deep appreciation for not only clear headed objectivity but also the pain of conflict.

If you meet this Prince in everyday life, he’s quite likely to be someone who bears the scars of a broken relationship. He knows all about loss, either through the death of his previous partner or through the conflict of a divorce or separation. If you’re involved romantically with a man like this, he will be an incredibly loyal and affectionate lover once you’ve won his trust but prior to this you will find he holds a part of himself back and enters into intimacy with great caution. Having been hurt in the past, he knows all to well the consequences of over hasty commitment and this is why we see him hiding behind a mask. You have to earn his trust and respect before you see his real face.

The condition of his loyalty depends upon honesty and transparency. Past experience has given him a keen eye for the dynamics of deception and he doesn’t suffer fools or cheats gladly. On a more positive note, this man has gone through the experience of losing love and intimacy so he’s never likely to take it for granted again. Having been left alone through circumstances beyond his choice, he cherishes the opportunity for a second chance and will never allow you, his new partner to take for granted the joys of your union. Having been given a new beginning, it’s likely that this Prince’s hard earned maturity gives him all the tools and awareness needed to forge a deep, close and lasting bond. He’s aware of potential pitfalls but he’s also deeply aware of his own limitations and accepts them with humility.

The reverse aspect of such a character is to remain in bitterness and cling to grief. Unless this man’s pain is channelled towards making a new beginning he can become sour, destructive and jealous, begrudging those around him the happiness he perceives he’s lost. Furthermore, such bitterness leads to the need to blame everyone else. The reversed Prince of Swords cannot accept that he may be at fault where his present loneliness is concerned.

On an abstract level, his appearance in a reading can denote the need for clear, analytical vision and the courage to say it how it is. This man cuts straight to the point where necessary, naming pretension and dishonesty for what it is. Maybe there’s a situation or relationship in your life where you need to do the same.

Chris.


Chris Butler.
Illustrator for the Quantum Tarot. Published by Kunati Books.

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Thursday, 11 September 2008

The Hierophant



The Hierophant is one of my least favourite cards. I don’t even find the appearance of Death, the Tower or the Ten of Swords as disturbing as the Hierophant in my readings and this probably has a great deal to do with my experience of organised religion in earlier life.

In my late teens and early twenties I suffered a great deal in the hands of people who were well meaning but also dangerously misguided. Gay teenagers weren’t exactly accepted as they were in the Great Britain of Eighties, particularly when you were entering ‘sacred spaces’.

Having reached my forties, embraced and celebrated the fact that I’m gay and moved out of organised religion, I’m realising I still have to forgive many of the people who misguidedly tried to ‘heal’ me, albeit with the best of intentions in some cases. In other cases, even the intentions weren’t the best and thinking about those individuals still makes me both angry and sad.

How many of us have been hurt by the Church or other established religious bodies? For me, it was because I was gay. The truth is, anyone who doesn’t fit in or conform where certain doctrines are concerned can be vulnerable to discrimination or abuse.

That said, I’m starting to realise my own tendency to throw the baby out with the bathwater can be equally destructive and my reaction to this card is a fine example. I fear the Hierophant as an archetype because I struggle to move past my vision of a church that caused me pain. Religious tradition tried to pigeon hole me in a negative way but it seems my reaction has been to shut myself down to all symbols of masculine religious authority.

It’s true the reversed meaning of this card is repressive and constricting religious authority and that’s what I experienced personally. We can’t just write off the Hierophant like this however. The positive aspect of the card is the benevolent guardianship of age old religious traditions. He is also a caring and authoritive guide who sets appropriate boundaries to keep us from straying into danger.

The Mystic (my equivalent of the High Priestess in a traditional deck) represents spiritual mysteries, inspirations and the ‘feminine’ intuitive capacity that all men need to nurture within themselves. However, he needs his male counterpart to balance these attributes, as do we. The Mystic is the revealer of mysteries, whilst the Hierophant is the explainer and teacher of those mysteries. If we operate in spiritual isolation from others, there will be no-one to tell us when we are going wrong.

In the Son Tarot, I’ve tried to show the Hierophant as a truly ‘reversible’ card because that’s how I see him. Because of the ambivalence many organised religions have to homosexuality, gay men’s experience of his influence can be good and evil. Yet despite this, we cannot ignore that the Hierophant is an embodiment of our spiritual heritage and tradition. The card is a mixture of hot and cold, dark and light. When viewed upright, you see a warm, glowing face as the foundation of the image but when reversed, a cold, blue face becomes the uninviting focus. Likewise, the centre of the card shows the silhouette of a traditional Hierophant figure but again, he is shown in good and bad aspects. The background of the card is a mixture of fire and ice whilst the overlay is a series of pentacles, both inverted and upright, one within the other. Over all this float the symbols of the four elements and an array of emblems for a variety of the world’s religions.

What becomes so frustrating with this card is there can be no absolute upright or reversal. Which ever way you have the card, there will always be a mixture of the Hierophant’s wholesome or destructive qualities. This, after all, is the nature of religion, faith and spirituality, organised or otherwise. We are, after all, flawed human beings and any construct we make around our spiritual insights can never be perfect due to our limited vision.

The Hierophant is an essential, albeit difficult presence in our lives. The greatest part of my own spiritual journey has been to accept the rough with the smooth. In my case, it was the church that hurt me. If you come from a different faith background, you’ll have a different story to tell. However, the Church isn’t all evil, far from it, and in my time involved with it I also gained a great deal.

This is such a difficult card to sum up but if he appears in your reading, the Hierophant can mean one of several things. Firstly, it could be you need the guidance and foundation of some kind of orthodox wisdom. Alternately, the Hierophant can symbolise accountability, particularly on a spiritual and moral level. Where are your checks and balances and who do you make yourself accountable to?

Finally, we must also accept that his appearance often asks us to examine our feelings towards organised religion. Like me, you may have been carrying a great deal of pain and resentment and left unresolved, this will gradually eat away at you inside.

Chris.

Chris Butler.
Illustrator for the Quantum Tarot. Published by Kunati Books.

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Sunday, 7 September 2008

Six of Cups (Re-visited).



If you’re reading this and thinking I’ve already written about this card then yes, you’re right! Please bear with me. I’ve had to write another article about the Six of Cups recently and something told me it might be worth re-visiting the card here as well. Prior to writing this I made a deliberate choice not to read my previous text from this blog so this is where I’m at with it at the moment. This card has great personal significance at present which is probably why it will take a couple of attempts to ‘get it right’.

In Tarot, the number 6 often represents a sense of perfection. Nowhere is this seen better than in Pamela Coleman Smith’s rendition of Major Arcana no. 6, The Lovers where she depicts Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden prior to the Fall.

In the Suit of Cups, the sense of perfection is projected onto the past and becomes nostalgia. The Son Tarot shows a man looking out across an ocean. Six cups emerge from the waters and amidst the sea birds, a postcard flies through the air, not from a far off land but from his far distant past. The image on the card shows an ex-lover.

As gay men, how do we deal with the past when it re-appears? How would you feel if one of your intimate lovers from the past appeared out of the blue on your doorstep tomorrow morning? Such questions may just be hypothetical but seeking to answer them often shows us to what extent the past still colours our present life.

This has been the most pertinent of cards for me in 2008. For some strange reason, the past has come back to haunt me in the form of several significant men on numerous occasions. One of these could easily be described as the love of my life, making the unexpected crossing of our paths quite difficult to deal with. I was relatively young when this guy came into my life and swept me off my feet. When our relationship ended, it took me the best part of five years and a re-location to another part of the country to get over the worst of it.

His re-appearance necessitated a painful re-examination of my own heart. When the postcard drifted across the ocean to me, it re-awoke a plethora of emotions that I thought had long since died and I had to finally admit that I’d never really managed to close the door once and for all on my love for him. A flame had been closed away in a corner of my heart for all these years; un-noticed maybe but constantly burning.

Nostalgia can be a good and healthy emotion when we look back to a past containing happy times, love and stability. It’s these very memories that inspire us for the future and aid us to draw strength for the present. In a situation like mine however, nostalgia was holding me back in a past that could never again be re-created and I’d come to a point where the best thing I could do was to acknowledge it was time to blow the candle out for one last time. When the past continues to control how you act in the present, you know the time has come to draw the line.

Not all of my Six of Cups experiences have been quite so negative this year and in some cases, the nostalgia of my past has been a positive driving force for the present. I’ve been lucky enough to come back into contact with several good school friends, some of whom I haven’t seen for over twenty years. In these cases, it’s been wonderful to re-live the memories of happy times from friendships past.

Another old flame re-appeared in my life recently but this was a very different situation. We parted on bad terms because I had treated him badly. For years now, I’ve wished for the opportunity to apologise and it arose quite unexpectedly when our paths crossed on the net. We may never meet again in person but it was heart-warming to know the apology was accepted in good faith.

The past is part of us and we never quite know when it might bleed over into the present. Such things just are. What matters is our attitude to the past and sometimes, being too possessive of it can taint our present and seriously damage our future. Cherish the past but make sure you only hold onto it loosely.

Chris.

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Wednesday, 20 August 2008

Nine of Cups



Something the gay community has proved very adept at is taking symbols of hatred or derision foisted upon itself and turning them into symbols of hope, triumph and defiance. There is no better example of this than the pink triangle.

It’s origins lie in the Nazi holocaust of the Second World War when captive gay men were badged with a pink triangle, effectively being tagged for genocide. Although the Jewish people were the primary target for what became one of the greatest evils of the Twentieth Century, a number of other minority groups including gypsies, those with mental disabilities and homosexuals were also the target of the Nazi’s abhorrent extermination policy.

I often wonder if many of today’s younger generation of gay men realise the origin of this potent symbol. It’s as prevalent on people’s lapels as the rainbow flag and the red AIDS ribbon and it has become a symbol of pride in who were are as gay men and women. Yet, the more I think of it, this symbol stands out to me as something more unique. In its rehabilitation, it shows that ultimately, a great evil in Western Europe failed to prevail.

Whenever we wear the pink triangle we remember those who have suffered and died but we also take the sword of the enemy and snap its blade in two. We wear the badge they wanted us to wear but rather than marking us for extinction, it proclaims our freedom of expression and validates our right to be who we are.

The Nine of Cups is the ‘wish’ card in the Tarot. It represents a time of dreams coming true and the experience of simple freedoms and happiness. It doesn’t represent the experience of deep love and lasting commitment; it’s more the experience of the potential for such things. It can also be a symbol of those times when the experience of sheer hedonistic joys is both appropriate and a good place to be.

I could think of no better symbol to place on this card than the pink triangle. This is a celebration of our freedoms and a culmination of wishes come true for all those who fought for them, both living and deceased. On the Son Tarot Nine of Cups the face of a man smiles out of the pink triangle. It is surrounded by grapes and cornucopias of fruits and it hovers above a river of wine where nine cups flow downstream towards us.

Whenever this card appears, enjoy the simple pleasures of being alive and being a gay man. Enjoy your friendships, enjoy having fun and above all, enjoy your freedom whilst remembering the high price that’s been paid for it by those who have gone before you.

This can be a time of drinking, of celebrating and even of casual sex. There can be a place for all these things in moderation, as long as they are accompanied by a respect for the integrity and feelings of others.

In simple terms, celebrate being alive!

Chris.

Chris Butler.
Illustrator for the Quantum Tarot. Published by Kunati Books.

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In Memorium. Leo Abse. 1917 - 2008.



A truly great man died on Tuesday.

Leo Abse MP was a key figure in the struggle for gay rights. He guided a Private Member's Bill through the British Parliament in 1967 that legalised sex between men.

He also played a part in the liberalisation of British divorce laws through the 1969 Divorce Reform Act.

To get a better idea of this man’s work in the context of British History, take a look at this article from the Pink News, July 9th 1997.

BBC News have provided an obituary, complete with news footage on their website.

My sympathy and best wishes to his wife and family.

Chris.


Chris Butler.
Illustrator for the Quantum Tarot. Published by Kunati Books.

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Tuesday, 5 August 2008

Five of Swords.


Traditional versions of this card often show the aftermath of a fight or battle. In Pamela Coleman Smith’s version of the card we see the victor in the foreground, smiling smugly and holding three swords. In the background we see two downcast men. These are the vanquished, their swords cast at the feet of the victor.

The main issue here isn’t one of victory and defeat. It’s one of attitude. Conflict is inevitable in life but what matters is how we deal with it. What we see here is an unhealthy dynamic that relies on the smug arrogance of the victor and the victim mentality of the vanquished.

When studying this image, one asks the question of whether or not the conflict portrayed was a necessary one. When designing my own gay themed version of the card, this concern was paramount.
My own ‘coming out’ as a gay man happened much later than usual. As I began to move about within gay subculture, I was shocked at the amount of unnecessary conflict and strife within the gay community. Having grown up in a homophobic culture in the North of England I was well aware of the fact that many people took great pleasure in trashing gay men. Imagine my shock therefore when I discovered a gay scene where large numbers of gay men enjoyed trashing each other through bitchiness, jealousy, body fascism, fashion prejudice and ageism amongst other negative attitudes.

There’s an old saying along the lines of ‘Hell hath no fury like a jealous Queen’. I despise the use of the term ‘Queen’ for a start. As gay men, we are men and the sooner we start to embrace that reality the better. However, it still shocks me to see grown men adopting a spiteful, parodying and effeminate stance as a weapon against their fellow man.

On the Son Tarot Five of Swords, our victor doesn’t brandish his three swords, rather he brandishes a well known obscene hand gesture at his victim who cowers under the power of vile words. The swords themselves hang in the air above the cowering victim to symbolise just how much damage venomous words and attitudes can cause.

The wartime saying went ‘Careless talk costs lives’. I think that we as the gay community would do well to heed this saying for modern times. What prejudices and jealousies inform our culture? Invariably, if we find ourselves putting other gay men down it’s to make ourselves feel superior because we’re un-affirmed in our own identities and sense of self worth.

If this card appears in a reading, it’s time to examine your attitudes and prejudices and to be honest about the damage they may be causing to others. If you’re taking pleasure in other people’s perceived misfortunes or inadequacies then it’s time to face up to your own.

If you’ve been a victim of this kind of nastiness, don’t cower in fear. It’s time to hold your head high and be confident of the fact that you’re worth just as much as the next person. Do you feel too old or too fat? Do you feel like a fashion failure? What the hell if you are? Whoever has made you feel like this is going by a false set of rules and it’s time we threw them out of the window.

In a wider sense, victory and defeat will always be a part of life and we’ll experience both in many different guises throughout our time on the Earth. Self acceptance and healthy stoicism in defeat are essential, just as humility in victory is equally essential.

Chris.

Chris Butler.
Illustrator for the Quantum Tarot. To be published by Kunati Books. September 2008.

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